It's like chasing the last train when its too late

"But we're running through the fire When there's nothing left to say It's like chasing the very last train When we both know it's too late, You can't play our broken strings You can't feel anything That your heart don't want to feel I can't tell you something that ain't real Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse So how can I give anymore When I love you a little less than before?"


Hi Worls :)

Hmm today has been really calm and mellow, in fact most of my days have been calm and mellow. Let see where do i start oh i dont over sleep today which is really good since today is my day off and i wanted to enjoy the morning too. I wake up and Karina calls me and asks me to go to EVC with her to go talk to the counsler and im like Yay cause ive been wanting to go there forever. So then i get ready and we head off there. I am so fucking excited for college. I mean i know alot of people are like wtf its just a community but im pretty content with it. I like that school theres nothing wrong with doing that and transfering to SDSU,SJSU,SFSU or even NYU. I mean its better than just applying anywhere just not to go to community or even worse is people who cant even afford to go to state or uc and they just want to go through the hell of paying for it just for the title of getting in one.. Whateves im happy with my choice. Me and KK were exploring the area i saw some cuties so i was like Score :). Then we go to find the conslers and the wait is crazy its like an hour and a half. Uh No. So we decide might as well come tommaorow morning.So now tommaorow i gotta wake up early to go when its less packed. After that me and karina go to Jamba Juice by EVC to use my employee benefits LOL i get an orange dream machine like always but its not that great with a boost kinda nasty. Then we go get some mceedees and catch up. I love hanging out with her im so happy she might not leave, Shes been really helping me with all of my current problems and has been there for me when i was feeling really emotional so now that im better i want to catch up. Then i go to the gym cause i have an appointment with a personal trainerr. Omg he worked me hard. LOL i was hella sweating bad ewls. But like to have one for a month is like 200 dollars. Thats alot but then again its not that bad. Im debating on it still so ill think about it some more. Then after im done working out with him i work out on my own. I do 38 minutes on the elepyticals.So proud of myself and so some weights. I love going to the gym ive been going alot lately, i think im going to go everyday. Then i walk home and i used to be like FML hate walking home but now im LML cause i love walking home. Its calming like i think alot when im walking. I see theres a fire somewhere and im like oh snaps. Go home, check the mail and see i got my first Jamba Juice check YAY. 119$$ Not that bad and im supposed to go get my Jmika one and RW on friday. Yes! Then i nap, go on aim and talk to trihn. Been talking to her alot latley :), Then i go watch some old tv shows and now im blogging . IMY Best Friend Hurry Up and come back from salt lake city please..


Tommarow is work :) and gym and mall after.. maybe try to visit trihns but i doubt i can...




Let me hold you for the last timeIt's the last chance to feel again But you broke me, now I can't feel anything When I love you and so untrue I can't even convince myself When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else Oh, it tears me upI tried to hold on but it hurts too much I tried to forgive but it's not enough To make it all okay You can't play our broken strings You can't feel anything That your heart don't want to feel I can't tell you something that ain't real



Night World :)