Once there was a girl,
Who learns really slow and remembers perfectly. She never forgets the feeling of her dad leaving her. It was the worst feeling for her to expierence in her life. Ever since he left she hates it when people leave her. It hurts her more than anything. So she builds a wall. A thick wall so people wont get in and hurt/affect her. She builds it high everyday;never careing if her wall hurts anyone or leaves anyone out.
It wasnt untill 5th grade where she found someone who went through her wall. That girl became her best friend and through the ups and down is the only one who has gone through her wall untill her high school year.
Where she met a two people who she trusted alot. She gave them love in hope of recieving love back. She tried so hard with them in hope of makeing sure they stay with her forever. One day one of them hurts her and makes her wall tumble completly down leaving her weak and depressed. The other stayed with her and helped her up and gave her hope that he would stay. He told her he would stay. But no matter how much she tried to keep him in her life; he never tried. No matter how much she wanted him to care and be there for her; he was never there. She noticed that once again her wall got broken and threw him out and built an even higher wall so no one can go inside.
When the girls wall was as tall as she wanted she sat alone. She spent alot of sleepless nights thinking of how bad she let herself get. Some days she notices that her heartless behavior and her deffensive attitude is her fear takeing over. She has alot of friends who she wants to let in. But her fear of them leaving her alone or hurting her stops her from fully opening to them. There isnt many people shes open with.
So alot of people began to hate her. Calling her all these names. Judging her, thinking that they knew her or trying to build an idea of who she really is due to the fact that they truley dont know her mentality. the girl didnt care; better than them knowing who she really was.
Now the girl is about to embark into the unknown. Her walls preventing her from seeing the beauty that her life has to offer. She knows that one day her wall will get broken but shes waiting for that one person who can truley make her feel and see the beauty of life. Untill then she waits alone for him. Her wall higher than ever but her hope as high as her wall
Monday, June 8, 2009
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