im totally sad right now. im stuck so much. its too unbelivable that i let myslef and let this get to this point. the worse part is that i cant tell anyone cause i dont want to admit that i lead myself to get to this. sucks. it seems like im always just trying to break my walls down but i rebuild them quickly.argh no one can understand right now. i cant tell anyone either, its not even that bad its just i dont want to admit it or allow myself to be venurable. thats why im so defensive alot, i never want some one to walk all over me the way he did. thats why i can never be calm in situations cause i feel as if im going to get taken advantage of. shit.fuck. argh.
Trust is a strong word with alot of elements. i do trust alot of people. but at the same time i dont like telling people my personal issues alot. it always fucks me over. plus when i do i feel weaker. so dont ever think that i dont if this is an insight then take it.
FML. but then its like the saying life goes on; i hate the situation im in but i gotta suck it up and deal with it. Cant change it, cant get out of it. just gotta deal with it.
P.S.
I loved my weekend =) Spent it with my regs. Just like last year. Got to be there for my best friend. I will always be there for you girl. no matter what time it is. ill be there loves you forever.& finally got to run a little and eat thai food...
Night WORLD WTYL
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