if today was your last day

wow so last night i dreamed the dream that no one wants to dream ! i dreamed i died. It was really weird cause at first i thought i was just looking at the past but in reailty i was dead =x
so everyone that ive ever cared about it was in it and idk my dream felt so real like i was reliving everything but this time i was getting to change the outcome of things so everything that has never turned out good i changed . But i changed it with my actions .. intially i think this dream was a sign. A big sign . I havent cried in a dream in so long and when i woke up i was crying like hell. I dont want to leave on bad terms with anyone. So this means that i have to like fix everything in my dream.. But i know some of them are going to be harder than others.. Ah i guess im just going to take babysteps and hope that this never comes true. I mean think about it people. we have one life, one breath , one momment ,one everything. and when people hurt us it only hurts cause those one moments destroyed everything that we've worked so hard to keep togther. Idk but this totally fucked up most of my day.. even my coworkers noticed LMAO you guys have no idea how much jamba juice got fucked over today ! im scared to sleep cause i dont want to dream that again ! Fuck, seriousley i dont care that my pride is telling me that to stfu about how i feel and continue on with my life without these people.. Cause i know that i should just be like fuck it but then again i know in my heart that everyone who ive ever hurt or who have hurt me are both somehow paying for it or has paid for it.. Whether it was a long time ago or if its current. No amount of pride is worth this. So fuck it okay think im stupid for doing this.. hell i think i am too but i cant leave knowing that in someway my mind and my heart and my feeling and my pride arent in one synce. I dont care who was right or who was wrong its just there are 5 people that i need to talk to .. I think im going to go for the easiest ones first.. But even the easy ones are hard.. My dream was horrible..