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yea people are fake and phony. fucking hate that quote that says familys better than friends. that bull shit. fucking hate my family right now. fucking make me know that im the black sheep in this family. fuck them. i fucking feel like shit. fuck my life right now. sorry. i know you read my blogs so all i have to say is sorry and hopefully my message cleared everything up. fuck i really hope im not starting to like him cause that would be all bad. but right now i have to re-evalute my feeling, cause im about fuck everything up if i do. so me and ken got this letter for senior honors night. fucken hella suprised but proud a little. it seens like this months my accomplishment month. i got a scholorship, awards night, working on another scholorship, and the honors night. fucking wish i had a family who would appricieate it. but its whatevers i no my friends will. hella cried at awards night the other day. fucking balled my eyes out. fuck. i cried when i saw martin and karina up there. it officially hit me that im not going to see them anymore. and then master chief and commander too. wow. so bad. got my daughters of the revoultuion medal though. so that made me happy. and we got distungiushed unit. hella proud. im about to get a black eye. thanks bitch. fuck. and i have to work tommaorw. i swear if they send me home cuz of my eye ill make my bitch ass sister get fired from her job. got my grades in. 2 a's, 3 c's and a b. fuck. went down. wow. 1984 is so dumb and im so fucking behind. yea. thats gay. what else. had fun on friday with chris and windy. had fun on thursday with raymund. had fun on wednesday at awards night. fucking dissapointed my teacher on thursday. felt like i got kicked in my stomach. schools over in 9 days. wow. so close. well thats all ttyl.